Fear challenge, Week One...
As previously discussed, here is my Week One entry. Many thanks to Amy who gave me more courage to do this than I knew I had.... and had the courage to do it herself.
I'm not sure where the next 4 exercises will take me, but I already feel good after doing this one... I know that these are valid fears, and indeed, my fears, but they just don't seem like strong enough reasons for holding myself back anymore.... maybe I've out grown them? Maybe I've had them for so long, that they aren't even my fears anymore?
I think, maybe, because whether we like it or not, scrapping, and art in general, is about trends, popularity. Criticism. Names. I don't want to be a name, but I don't want to be no-one either... man, I could just cut and paste most of Amy's blog because that's just how I feel too... I'm not asking to be THE one.. but I crave some recognition, and I am afraid that by admitting that, I sound like a showoff... and I'm not. I'm not as terribly insecure as I once was, and I'm not sure when the change happened, but now it's more like, oh, I don't know. If you know, let me know, and then we'll all know.... you know? Especially if you want to make money out of your art, because then you are subjected to opinions, markets, whatever... it stops being about creating for you, and becomes creating for the market. And I do know that happens, because we know a guy who's a selling oil painter, and he is forced to do the same style of painting over and over, because it sells.... now he hates painting. Which is so sad. Tragic.
Art should be an expression that brings joy to both the artist and the viewer, even though each of them comes to it with different life experiences etc... they can both get something from the art process....
Ok, now I'm really rambling....
Ta-da!!
HA! beat silly blogger who didn't like my layout!
Alpha by Kim Christensen and papers by Jen Wilson :)
I'm not sure where the next 4 exercises will take me, but I already feel good after doing this one... I know that these are valid fears, and indeed, my fears, but they just don't seem like strong enough reasons for holding myself back anymore.... maybe I've out grown them? Maybe I've had them for so long, that they aren't even my fears anymore?
I think, maybe, because whether we like it or not, scrapping, and art in general, is about trends, popularity. Criticism. Names. I don't want to be a name, but I don't want to be no-one either... man, I could just cut and paste most of Amy's blog because that's just how I feel too... I'm not asking to be THE one.. but I crave some recognition, and I am afraid that by admitting that, I sound like a showoff... and I'm not. I'm not as terribly insecure as I once was, and I'm not sure when the change happened, but now it's more like, oh, I don't know. If you know, let me know, and then we'll all know.... you know? Especially if you want to make money out of your art, because then you are subjected to opinions, markets, whatever... it stops being about creating for you, and becomes creating for the market. And I do know that happens, because we know a guy who's a selling oil painter, and he is forced to do the same style of painting over and over, because it sells.... now he hates painting. Which is so sad. Tragic.
Art should be an expression that brings joy to both the artist and the viewer, even though each of them comes to it with different life experiences etc... they can both get something from the art process....
Ok, now I'm really rambling....
Ta-da!!
HA! beat silly blogger who didn't like my layout!
Alpha by Kim Christensen and papers by Jen Wilson :)
posted by Cassandra | 10:30 am
2 Comments:
I'm afraid ... that I am with you on nearly all of those fears. I've cut back on my ct's basically because I was beginning to worry over scrapping too, no fun anymore, just deadlines and stress about forgetting stuff ... it's eased off a bit now, but oh, how I long to create what I want to, rather than what I have to, if that makes sense. I don't want to lose my joy in this art form ... mini essay here, but hey, that's what happens when you start thinking deep, heavy thoughts! :)
You rock my world, Cass. Thank you so much for sharing your fears with me and making me think about all these things in the first place. You are you - talented, wonderful you! And I'm so glad to know you! WTG on this - you are so brave. :)
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